Rough Friday

errr, pretty rough day yesterday. i dunno what’s going on with him. he acted weird… somehow. we were ok and then, blag! i thought he was acting like that coz of me going to the movies with my friend. but wait, there’s a subliminal message to that. bwahahahaha!  in the long run, i found out the real reason why he acted like that. bwahahahaha! i can’t help but laugh everytime i remember his text messages. but some of the words he said kinda hurt me. hmmm… it does hurt though somehow. ok, a lot. i just have to smile all the way to forget those words.  does he really have to be like that? urgh, fine. he’s not jealous that’s what he said. haha, but obviously there’s bitterness in his words when he mentions the other guy’s name. he finds guy #2, all arrogant and nonsense. well, he does have a point there. funny, i’m the one who should be pissed off with the other guy. not him! hahahaha! *sigh* i guess, at this point… i just have to be patient and be the most understanding person in the world. ayoko kasi mag-away kami o magsalungat ng opinyon. every minute counts… and those minutes, as much as possible, i want them to be happy ones.

Last Day for My Boring Work Week

i think this is the longest 15 minutes of my life. it takes forever. or maybe, i just keep on looking at my avaya for the time. but i dunno… every minute is like an hour of waiting. i came from the restroom to do absolutely nothing, when i came back at my station. i still have 13 more minutes before my log-in time. it’s not that i’m so excited to work but rather, i wanted the time to pass by quickly. or maybe, i’m just sad. good thing, awin and wacky are here. at least, i can take my mind off of him. i just got a call, a very weird one. i think the guy thought he’s hearing a recorded voice prompt. i asked for the dsl telephone number and he DIALLED the number. i pressed the mute button so that he won’t hear me laughing. i asked him his phone # again and good thing, he realized that i’m a live person.

just chatting with jo and caci. jo and i are exchanging opinions about something or someone. hahahaha. we’d rather stay quiet about it. some of the things that we talked about are some latest chismax on the AM shifters. we haven’t seen the PM shifters for a long time now. hahahaha! awwwww, miss you too dude! let’s watch a movie. hehehehe. well, i’m planning on watching some full house episodes on youtube at work. availness chuvaness. hmmm, about caci… well, he wants to meet up. bwahahahahaha! yeah right *roll eyes*. anyways, we went outside to eat lunch and came back wet! hahahaha! rain was pouring really hard. lynn and i ran as fast as we can to the restroom and have ourselves blowdried. hahaha! just take a look at our feet. bwahahahaha!

 

 

 

Boring Sunday

sunday’s always a bore at work, especially if you’re in A shift. not too much calls and you get very weird ones. seriously, they’re weird. just here in front of my pc and eating some green mangoes and the neverending buena bonita burgers. hahahaha! lyn keeps on bugging me to logout of my avaya and go home. we both have terrible headaches. i really don’t feel like taking calls since i’m really not having a good day. hmmm… i’m feeling like this since yesterday. we didn’t have any arguments nor misunderstandings. i guess, he’s just really really tired (physically speaking). although, he did send me an email. which is really sweet, by the way. he just assured me that he’s ok and that he’s just tired from work and that i’m his inspiration to keep on moving. awwww, ain’t he a sweetie? although, he really is quite moody. teehee. mwah! a kiss for my angel… i’ll be seeing you tomorrow for the first time at work. welcome back to k-pointe! he’s gonna be floorwalking tomorrow. we’ll be catching glimpses at one another. hehe, kinikilig tuloy ako. i can’t wait for that…

hmmm, just called kulot last night. he hasn’t slept yet. rf was supposed to be there at his place but chris decided not to ler her to. anyway, it’s really too late for a girl to be at a boy’s house. haha! i’m just glad that their friendship are back in one piece. i know how much she means to him. also, i’m really glad that rf already explained to chris why they can never be a couple and i’m proud of kulot for accepting that fact. i guess, dar just really have to trust chris aboout this. i remembered my ex-guy at this point. the relationship was really hard for us since he moved to the states to practice his profession. he’s a doctor. and that really made it difficult for both of us. it’s not about a trust issue but more of communications. we’re in different timezones, hehe. the coldness was there in the long run of the relationship. so we both decided to end it. we’re still good friends though. i’m just glad things ended in a good way. yeah, i’m a sucker for complicated relationships. haha! dunno, prolly i haven’t met the right guy who’d sweep me off of my feet or be my prince charming who’d wake me up in my sleep. sleeping beauty, ikaw ba yan? hehe. anyway, going back to kulot. i just hope everything will be alright. i’m a bit touched with rf’s message to kulot. she’s wishing that their (dar and chris) relationship would be given another chance. well, it’s really up to chris. nahihirapan na rin kasi yung tao. he went awol the other day coz he’s really emotionally stressed. haha, yvette (our account manager) keeps on asking us what happened to kulot. although, his excuse for his absence is not valid, somehow we understand him. from what i’m seeing, the relationship is not healthy anymore. as what lucky said, it was never healthy in the very first place. yeah, it really wasn’t. it’s not about a distance issue, although it really is hard to have a long distance relationship. it’s more like trust and the level of maturity in the relationship. anyways, it’s really up to them whether they’d still continue this one or not. relationships are really not complicated at all. it’s those people that make this complicated.  i just hope chris would be alright and the reason he’s not texting me is because he’s already asleep. goodluck bro.

as for work, lyn is still bugging me. hahahaha! she’s doing this heritage thingy. czar and wacky are already planning on putting up their own blogs. haha! availness chuvaness!!

On Breakups and Chorva

hahaha, watta weird title. CHORVA! well, just read dar’s blog. and i really dunno what to say or prolly how to say such things in a way nobody would take it negatively.

for the past few days, my lil bro chris has been having some dilemmas. and i haven’t talked to him in person yet. i dunno what’s going on between dar and chris. but as far as i know, it’s affecting kulot A LOT. to the point that he’ll text me in the middle of my date (haha, hindi naman niya alam yun), and ask me who he has to choose between my boyfriend (meron ba) and my bestfriend. of course, i know, kunwari sa akin lang yun pero actually storya ng buhay ni kulot yun. ayaw pa sabihin ng diretso, alam ko naman kung saan tutungo ang usapan. of course, i told him that, in the first place, you’re partner doesn’t have any right to let you choose between you and your bestfriend. partners (except if you’re married), are not like bestfriends. pag naghiwalay kayo ng jowa mo, yun na yun, tapos na. pwede maibalik pero mahirap, pero ang kaibigan, maghiwalay man kayo kaibigan pa rin hanggang huli. i’m not saying that you don’t choose your partner. but rather, think about it. never regret any decisions you make.  then, tawanan na kami sa text.

then i read, dar’s blog which made me wonder how was she able to say that everything was so easy for chris. if only she knows, how he gets affected everytime she’s sad or everytime that they have petty misunderstandings. he can’t do his job well. he gets to be too emotional. yung cellphone nga niya, pag matutulog na lang nakadikit pa sa tenga kulang na lang i-mightybond namin ni jo. if that shows that it’s easy for him, pano pa kaya pag nahirapan siya. not being listed in your featured list doesn’t say your position in his life yet your pictures are still at his photo list. kainis lang. the things he does for you… and now, she wants closure. weird, parang dapat sa kanya manggaling yun coz all she asks before was SPACE everytime they have misunderstandings and petty quarrels. what more space does she need? for pete’s sake, she’s already in cebu. and for a girl that’s far far far far away from her boyfriend, hanga ako sa kanya kasi hawak niya sa leeg ang kaibigan ko. oh di ba? kung di ba naman siya mahal nung tao, mapapasunod ba naman niya yun?

hay naku, sana nga magkaron na ng closure. closure, not meaning breakup but closure, meaning, alamin kung ano talaga ang sitwasyon at kung maayos pa at kung hindi na, tanggapin na lamang ang katotohan. basta ako, concerned lang ako sa dalawa. actually more kay kulot. syempre bias ako, lil bro ko yun eh. bwahahahaha! anyway, brah, text mo lang ako ha kung me prob at bibigyan kita ng advice na hinding-hindi mo makakalimutan. it will make your mouth water. haha, j/k lang. kaw naman! text lang ha? toodles!

Obituary (For Common Sense)

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend by the name of common sense that has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such value lessons as knowing when to come in out of the rain, why the early bird gets the worm and that life isn’t always fair.

Common sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don’t spend more than you earn) and reliable parenting strategies (adults, not kids, are in charge).

His health began to rapidly deteriorate when well intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a six-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition. It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer asprin to a student; but, could not inform the parents when a student became pregnant and wanted an abortion.

Finally, Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments became contraband; churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims.

Common Sense finally gave up the fight after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot, she spilled a bit on her lap, and was awarded a huge settlement.

Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents, Truth and Trust, his wife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility and his son, Reason. He is survived by two stepbrothers; My Rights and Ima Whiner.
Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone. If you know him pass this on, if not join the majority and do nothing.

Have a good day.

HURTING People is my FORTE

when i’m in this “topak” mode, i get to say things or do things i don’t actually mean or prolly i mean it but it’s just half-meant. and i get to hurt people… and that’s because it’s my FORTE. i’m a selfish bastard. and now, he’s not talking to me and i made him confused. and i don’t know what to do… and i’m terribly missing him. urgh!

it was a long time ago when i did a stupid decision. my parents got hurt and until now, never got the chance to apologize to them. i don’t have the guts. that’s why, eversince i started doing the right thing, i kinda like lessen the time i have for my friends. and i go home immediately after school or after work, coz i wanna make it up with ’em especially with my mom. her health condition is not good and most of the time, she’s emotionally stressed. so, i’m the only person she can count on. sometimes, my peers would tease me coz i wouldn’t come with ’em with our gimmicks. but uhmmm, i just needed to make it up with my mom. it’s my way of apologizing to her. i don’t care if it takes me forever but i’ll do it.

so, that’s just one of the examples of how bad my personality is (MOST OF THE TIME IT’S BAD). and if i continue living up like this, well… i might lose people that are dear to me and i think, i’m gonna lose one right now. *sigh* i hate this… but, no. i don’t wanna hate myself. coz if i do, then i’ll be forever sulking like this. gotta stand up, rawr!

Confucious Confused

urgh! nalilito na ako…! ano ba dapat kong gawin!!!??? HOY LYN! yun nga ba ang dapat? but then, jhun told me to stick with my decision no matter what. somehow, i’ll get used to it, i mean with the pain. how am i gonna make a decision when he doesn’t even know where i stand in his life? unless he wakes up from his fantasy and face reality, i can’t make any decisions. i wonder what confucious does when he’s confused? hmmm… anyway, ang dami ko calls ngayon. rawr! sana ok naman sa BU. got my stats for WW05. whoa! 12.41 AHT, waaaaa! it’s pretty weird. imbes na mamroblema ako kung pano bababa AHT ko, namomroblema ako kung pano ko itataas. waaaaaaaa!

PS
kelan pa raw ba naging “in a relationship” ang status ko sa friendster. matagal na dapat yun ang status ko, hehe. syempre, sarap pa rin kasing ilagay na single. ahahahahaha!

Time To Face Reality

dahil nalulungkot si lyn dito sa work, napag-isipan kong samahan siya dito. tutal, we’re sharing the same sentiments.

*sigh* how am i gonna face tomorrow without you? the reason why i smile… the reason why i’m happy… but we both know it can’t be and it has to stop. and yes,like you said, we both know it was gonna come to this point. sabi mo nga, kayanin ko. i’m doing this for you not for me. coz honestly, if you were to ask me if i’m gonna end it, i won’t. that’s why, the main reason is, of course, YOU. and as hard as it may be, i have to face it. phone calls, exchanging of text messages and mails… all of that, i’ll terribly miss. but it’s time to face reality. and that reality is, a future without you.

I Was On Hiatus

i was on hiatus for quite a few weeks. no updates or whatsoever. pretty much busy with what’s going on both at work and at home. although, pretty much of it has got something to do at home. for starters, my uncle passed away… which is still a shock to us. we’ve already accepted the fact that he’s gone. but uhmmm, it still hurts that everytime i wake up in the morning, i’m not able to hear nor see that one person. we’ll miss you, tito rudy.

now, back to work… well, we’re now regularized and we’ll be getting our appraisals this cut-off. still need to work on one critical requirement and that is my grades at school. i’m now part of the MINOTAUR FAMILY. johanna and i are on the same team now. too bad, we’re on different schedules.

we just had our very first FGD meeting, wherein we get to tell what’s making people leave sykes or our account. qwest has the largest attrition in all of sykes’ 39 accounts. we get to tell them some of the things that we need to work on. hopefully, there will be immediate results. but, as what HR told us, some changes will be gradually noticed by the last week of february or by march.

that’s about it for today. can’t think of anything to write… toodles!

BTW
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DADDY! LOVE YAH!!!

Alaala

tahimik sa compound ngayon. walang maingay. walang tao. lahat gulat. lahat malungkot. wala na ang tito. wala na… 11:45am, friday ng bumigay ng tuluyan ang katawan niya. masyado kami nagulat dahil yun ang labas niya ng ICU at ililipat na siya sa recovery room. but then again, hindi na umabot ang tito rudy. ang dami ng complications… lahat ng pamilya, malungkot. parang panaginip lang, parang gusto ko lang matulog ng matulog. ngunit, sa paggising ko, bangungot pa rin ang kagigisnan ko. wala na akong ginawa kundi magkulong sa kwarto at umiyak. pasalamat na lang talaga ako sa trabaho at nakakaisip pa ako ng matino. hindi pa alam ng lola namin ang totoong dahilan kung bakit siya namatay. ikamamatay ng lola namin ang totoong dahilan. sana nga bangungot lang, pwede pa akong gumising. pero hindi… uuwi na naman ako ng bahay mamaya at makikita ang lungkot. nakakatuwa rin kahit paano dahil ang daming taong nakikiramay. maraming nagmamahal sa tito ko. iba talaga ang pulitika sa Pilipinas. madugo, marumi… at isa kami sa mga biktima.